Boom Boom

O shame, O shame

Must be the beer talkin'

My anger who will tame

Inner fear stalkin'

Walking this path of shame

Must be the pill talkin'

Who is to blame?

What hole did it fill?

Nightly shadows walking

Down the path of despair

Silent people talking

There is nothing to repair

O shame, O shame

For what is this pill?

Some bullshit persciption

It did not fill the darkness inside

You my friend

Came into my life

You my fiend

Came with a knife

Bullshit stories

Fake smiles

Bullshit glories

Hidden files

All that in head

Spinning around

You all are dead

Screaming in my head

Boom boom

Goes my heart

Some fine art

Boom boom

O shame, O shame

That was so lame

Bullshit pill

Did not fill

The pain

Is like the rain

Always to maintain

Hello friend

Hello my old friend insanity

Walking these dark corners

Where is my humanity

Talking shadows beyond borders

Smiling insanely

Reaching out

Dreaming outer worldly

Preaching madly

Slowly loosing my mind

Inside outside

Turning blind

Inside outside

Hello my old friend sanity

Walking these plains

Where is my inhumanity

Silenced trees dancing

Wild winds blowing

Rain drops falling

Fireflies glowing

People talking...

Taking another pill

Day after day

To fill that hole

Day after day

Is it designed to help

To save

Or just another perscribtion signed by the doc to make you shut up

Not that brave to ask

Hello insanity my old friend

Where is my humanity

Hello sanity my old friend

Where is my inhumanity

Star

Walking throught the night

Looking in the sky

Talking about the velvet dream

Hope we wont cry

Dancing in the rain

Dreaming of a better day

Wash away the pain

release me if you may 

Where are you my friend

Where have you gone?

You seemed like a fiend

What is wrong?

Last time we spoke

You sent me away

What was my crime

Are you that broke?

Wishing upon a star

Looking in the sky

Dancing in the far far away ceiling

With a fierce battle cry

Indifferent

You said you'll give a answer later
But you did not
Leaving me asking yet again
Decieving my mind

Why is it you find me
Only when you need something
And I yet again become blind
Do anything you ask of me

Tired of this bullshit
Light a smoke
My head gets dull of that shit
Off to a grand adventure I might go

Just to get away from this
Eyes light up
You are in my way
Turn around
It's this way
Let's have another round

This time it's me and then only others
Egomania to the finest
Light a smoke
Eyes widen
Extazy beyond my limit

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Cig

I light the cig
As I stand near the window
It is already night
All I hear is passion

Inhaling the smoke
Enjoying the view
Exhaling my hope
All high on meds

This is my passion
Broken down on meds
Catascrophical obsession
Just dont call the feds

I light my cig
Staring down the window
My heart aint that big
To make that leap

What a beautiful night
Ashes drop of the cig
What i see with my sight
Bashes through my might

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Me, myself and you

The breaker

The destroyer

The creator

And the holder

Always it is I

I am a brat

Always it is I

Just like a rat

I plan and I create

Then you leave

I destroy and I break

I think you deceive

But I'm wrong

Always a child

Always a father 

Holder of the pack 

They don't care

Nor they see

I see every time they care

Every time they help

But when it come to do it auto

They disappear

Is it hard to ask to take notice

Is it hard to ask me

Is it hard to be there for me?

Always 

It is I that creates, destroys, breaks and hold

The pack

A father

Yet a child inside that want attention just like you 

Night

Where is my mind?
Wandering my dreams
What will i find?
So dark it seems

Night in my dreams
So dark it seems
With my awful sight
I will seek light

Sleepy thoughts
Insane fights
Creepy thoughts
Nightly betrayals

Wandering these trails
Where is my mind
A train wrecked of its rails
Where is my mind
Make it rain

All this pain
Backstabing bitches
What will you all gain?
It itches to cut you off

Where is my mind?
So dark it seems
What will you find?
Backstab...

Viciouse cycle
Dreams
Night
Blood
Blank

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Head

My head hurts

I desire too much

My head bursts

There is no dream such

Thoughts

Dreams

Desires

Pain

I am a monster

I write

I don't draw

I am a shadow of my former self 

Lost so many

Kept less

Wandered around

Wondered about

My head hurts

Dream shattered

My head bursts

It may seem

Thoughts

Pain

Desires

Dreams

I am a shadow of my former self

I do not recognize myself

I write only words

No meaning

Draw no lines

Venus

Sleep

Dream

We all are sheep

Come on scream

Come to my feet

Let me command

The black fleet

I demand

My desires

Lovely dreams

Let me dominate

Obey me

Sacred

Sacred thoughts
Entertain my mind
Scared arms
What will it find

Wonderful night
All my scared emotions
I want to take flight
Sacred thoughts

So many wrongs
Almost no rights
Do i even have emotions any?
Oddest of all sights

Where am I now
What do I do
All these questions
No answers

Sacred thoughts
Scared arms
Entertain my mind
I am blind...

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reality

Welcome to my reality

The dream of constant insanity

No place to stay

Nothing to say

Wandering the dark

Feeling lost

Wishing for a spark

Can you read this post?

Echoes in my mind

No place to stay

What can I  find

Nothing to say

Wondering all the time

Is this reality

Pondering my thoughts

Constant insanity

No more feelings

No more ceilings

No place to stay

Nothing to say

Welcome to my reality

The dream of loneliness

Come with me

Always alone

Feeling lost

No place to stay

Is there a inn host?

Nothing to say

Beautiful night

a field of grass

It isn't bright

Nothing to wield

Apostrophe

Here I am again

By a request

What will I gain

In this mad quest

Haven't been here for a while

All cause I could smile

Blinded and thought to be unseen

Stunned by this vile stench

Take a wrench

And hit me in my mind

You damned wench

What will you find?

Calm down now

Look in my palm

Do you see

That guy making a frown

Is it me?

I thought you were my friend

Always kind and loving

But maybe your a fiend

Cunning and cold 

Why am I mumbling these lines

Just like those mindless ones stumbling upon and upon

Paying those fines and seeking their own lines 

Oh the smell. the reeking of rotten desires

Grant me my light

While I stay in this night

Take that wrench 

Just be that wench

End it

Viņa

Tu ka ledus esi

Manu siltumu tu nesi

Mana vienīga

Īsteni vainīgā 

Kā saule tu spīdi

Jēli es teiktu

Ik brīdi

Caur manu sirdi tu steigtu

Es apmaldījos

Tu smaidīji

Gandrīz nesavaldījos

Ar skatieniem tu baidīji

Tu esi tā vienīgā

Ko vēlos dedzināt

Apskaut

Nošaut

Turēt

Tu kā ledus esi

Skaistākas par tevi nav

Lai ko tu teiktu

Baisākas ari neatradīsies

Lai ka ari es nesteigtu prom 

Tu kā ledus esi

Saldena kā medus esi

Mana vienīga 

Īsteni vainīgā

Mana laimīgā

B

B

Drunken words

Happy thoughts

That is the B

Smelly swords

Betrayed many times

This time I died

Born again

Different person

Same face

I will not seek guidance

Nor I shall forgive

All will pay

As same that there are no rhymes here

Re-imagination

Re-imagination

Why do I still feel this pain

I thought let it be

Stop the eternal rain

Just wait and see

Inside out

Let the cage break

For what did I fought

Let loose the rage

What was the gain

A really high stake

I'm not even sane

While you are fake

Why do I still feel this pain

Betrayed by my own love

Let it rain fire

Fly away like a dove

The nights are dark

Thoughts are gloom

There is no spark

Why did I let it bloom

Oh what a sight

Feeling calm

Yet not sane

You crushed me with your palm

I shall let myself loose

Lose all hope

As your pedestal will fall

And my sanity will crumble

Inside out

Let it be

Let it be

She is the love of my life

She does not want to see

Fly away like a dove

Forget the guilt of my destruction

I'm sad and lost

She is fine and happy

Maybe I'm glad

Show me a sign

She is the love of my life

Cant let her go, not yet

Fly away like a dove

Create your own set

Let it be

Just wait a see

Free of pain

Without gain

Becoming Insane

She is the love of my life

Incoming pain

Fly away like a dove

Dancing in the moonlight

Singing in the rain

There is no sunlight

For the insane

Let it be

Without light

Kisses in the dark

Welcome the night

This is my of story arc

Just wait and see

Becoming Insane

Becoming insane

Are you even sane?

How does it feel?

I think I'm becoming insane

Oh so lovely

Faking my own smile

Laughing inside out

I think I'm becoming insane

Oh so lovely

How does it feel?

To be the one

To blame

It isn't the same 

Inside out

Look into the mirror

You are the blame

I'm not the same

Are you even sane?

No me no understand

I think I'm becoming insane

How do I stand?

I'm becoming insane

Love-struck broken

Without emotions

Laughs only spoken

Smiling

Dancing

Insanity

Profanity

Are you even sane?

How does it feel?

I think I'm becoming insane

You steal my heart away

Stomp it

I smile

Oh how lovely

I have become insane

Hysteria

                                 Hysteria
                          
                     Dreaming the dreams
                          Loosing all hope
                              So it seems
                  Choosing different sides

                                Once I felt
                These emotions of hysteria
                             Then you left
                Now there is the big mysteria

                              Velvet nights
                          Faceless frowns
                                Odd sights
                 It seems everybody drowns

                            Strangers meet
                          Inside my dreams
                                 Dark feats
                                So it seems

                        No more emotions
                            I shall not fall
                            Give me more
                            I will stand tall

                           Repent thy evil
                                I forgive
                         Change the event
                            I do not forget

                   Inside my own hysteria
                            Missing them
                 Well thought out mysteria
                               No more

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Blue eyed beauty

Anaconda

Blue eyed beauty

With hair so white

The one that I thought was true

But we were no pair

You are the snake of my life

Strangling me slowly

For what sake?

What does is make?

Upon the hills of despair

I stand alone

Broken inside

Beyond repair

In a land unknown

Blue eyed beauty

With hair so white

How does it feel to be yourself

Looking in to the mirror

Grasping your own lies

You are the snake of my life

Strangling me slowly

I thought of this many nights

That you brought me many delights

Oh those were the sights

Inside out

I cry every night

Broken inside

Fake outside

Blue eyed beauty

With hair so white

The one I loved

The one I sought

You bring me despair

Indeed beyond repair

Flux

Streamline

Terrified of what is to come

Stranded in my thoughts

Is it really verified

Branded without hope

Just to know the same feelings coming inside

Blaming the outcomes already

Storming the ceilings of this darkest box

Gaining true calmness

Of the forsake result of loss  

I shall not give up

I will not fall

Inside this dream

Or rather a nightmare than a dream

It may seem this is connected

But what is the truth

Where does the key lie

Or am I already disconnected?

It may seem that the events of betrayal

 Are somewhat to do with this

But alas this just be a little part

Of other lies ahead

You the one that left

Have no saying anymore

It was just a theft

As I was praying no more

Left alone

Shattered inside

Calm outside

With a face of no emotion

Terrified of what is to come

Inside this dream

Is it verified

Or may it seem hopeless outside?

How does it feel to be the one

That broke a man that cared for you

Is it even real that other thing that you speak of?

Stared down the endless pit of darkness

It may seem that the events of betrayal

Are somewhat connected

Shattered inside 

Calm outside

With a face of no emotion

Terrified of what is to come

Left alone

I shall not fall

Nor bow to some

You the one that left

Broke me for real

It was a theft

Undone the seal..