Change me so i can change

I am a childish fiend

It is wrong of me

So it seems

So say so long to me

What I say is always wrong

What others say is always right

Them, you and others

Same old song different light

Am I that bad?

This is mad!

I change 

Doesn't matter

I want to change

I want to be better

But it's out of my range

One final letter

Note to self

Before you write

Calm down

Don't use spite

Anger crown

When you write

Be true 

Don't smite

Only true

Otherwise you will hurt the dearest of your kind

Make arguments and hate

Use your words wise

Take your time

Your friends, family and dearest

Don't smite

They're the nearest

Forget spite

Anger crown

Remove frown

Calm down

Or you'll drown

Boom Boom

O shame, O shame

Must be the beer talkin'

My anger who will tame

Inner fear stalkin'

Walking this path of shame

Must be the pill talkin'

Who is to blame?

What hole did it fill?

Nightly shadows walking

Down the path of despair

Silent people talking

There is nothing to repair

O shame, O shame

For what is this pill?

Some bullshit persciption

It did not fill the darkness inside

You my friend

Came into my life

You my fiend

Came with a knife

Bullshit stories

Fake smiles

Bullshit glories

Hidden files

All that in head

Spinning around

You all are dead

Screaming in my head

Boom boom

Goes my heart

Some fine art

Boom boom

O shame, O shame

That was so lame

Bullshit pill

Did not fill

The pain

Is like the rain

Always to maintain

Hello friend

Hello my old friend insanity

Walking these dark corners

Where is my humanity

Talking shadows beyond borders

Smiling insanely

Reaching out

Dreaming outer worldly

Preaching madly

Slowly loosing my mind

Inside outside

Turning blind

Inside outside

Hello my old friend sanity

Walking these plains

Where is my inhumanity

Silenced trees dancing

Wild winds blowing

Rain drops falling

Fireflies glowing

People talking...

Taking another pill

Day after day

To fill that hole

Day after day

Is it designed to help

To save

Or just another perscribtion signed by the doc to make you shut up

Not that brave to ask

Hello insanity my old friend

Where is my humanity

Hello sanity my old friend

Where is my inhumanity

Star

Walking throught the night

Looking in the sky

Talking about the velvet dream

Hope we wont cry

Dancing in the rain

Dreaming of a better day

Wash away the pain

release me if you may 

Where are you my friend

Where have you gone?

You seemed like a fiend

What is wrong?

Last time we spoke

You sent me away

What was my crime

Are you that broke?

Wishing upon a star

Looking in the sky

Dancing in the far far away ceiling

With a fierce battle cry

Indifferent

You said you'll give a answer later
But you did not
Leaving me asking yet again
Decieving my mind

Why is it you find me
Only when you need something
And I yet again become blind
Do anything you ask of me

Tired of this bullshit
Light a smoke
My head gets dull of that shit
Off to a grand adventure I might go

Just to get away from this
Eyes light up
You are in my way
Turn around
It's this way
Let's have another round

This time it's me and then only others
Egomania to the finest
Light a smoke
Eyes widen
Extazy beyond my limit

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Cig

I light the cig
As I stand near the window
It is already night
All I hear is passion

Inhaling the smoke
Enjoying the view
Exhaling my hope
All high on meds

This is my passion
Broken down on meds
Catascrophical obsession
Just dont call the feds

I light my cig
Staring down the window
My heart aint that big
To make that leap

What a beautiful night
Ashes drop of the cig
What i see with my sight
Bashes through my might

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